Let me tell you, God has blessed me so much within the past few weeks.
I haven't made a post recently, but that is because I have been taking care of some business. School, finances, and relationships are some of the many things that have been taking my "blog time" away from me, but I'm baaaaaaack. Missed me?
Since my last post, I have upgraded to a new level in my life. I'm at the level where I am finally piecing together the importance of getting my life together. I've been doing my research (for both my upcoming speech and also for my own personal knowledge), and did you know that 69% of employers give job offers to their interns? ...so can you guess what I've been working on for the past few weeks? Applying for internships can be a little overwhelming (especially when you're trying to not ask your parents for application advice every 5 seconds), but they are well worth it in the end. I'm not going to give exact details about my progression within the internship world, but I will advise you to be prepared for me to be more busy than what I already am.
Along with internships come other extracurricular activities. I have been busy with planning for and hosting events for my organization RHA and I just recently finished training with my school's RA Academy. You know what that means? It means that I may become an RA for one of my school's dorms next semester (fingers crossed!). On this new level of mine, I have made it a necessity to become involved with my school and community. I'm looking forward to next semester and the new organizations and activities that I will become involved with.
Unfortunately, although their have been great things going for me, their has been some hard times. One struggle that I know just about every college student understands is student loans. Oh my gosh, do you understand the stress of handling college loans without trying to drag your parents into it? (You can probably see my trend of not trying to bring my parents into everything..."independence" ...right?) On top of that, I have had to do the unthinkable...take off my acrylic nails. Yes, I know. Anyone that knows me knows that since 9th grade, acrylic nails have been my addiction...but they are becoming a financial burden to me since I do not have an on-campus job. Trust me, Christmas, summer, and spring break paychecks from McDonalds are not going to support my expensive taste, necessities, and acrylics. Sacrifices. But those sacrifices are beyond worth it when you hear your parents say how proud they are of you and your maturity.
On this new level, came another devil...a breakup. It wasn't my first nor will it be my last, but it still hurt. I cried, I got angry, I even contemplated burning his stuff that he left in my room...but let's be real, if it didn't work out well for Left Eye, it probably wouldn't work for me either. But in the end, I'm glad the split happened. Yes I care for him, but I also know that I care for myself and all the things that I need to do while I have my short 2 years left in college. (I can't believe that in 3 weeks, I'll be half way there to graduating college). Plus, if it's meant to be, it'll come back into place...if it isn't, well there are plenty of other good looking guys that will realize that I am the bomb-diggity.
So...
The purpose of this post wasn't to give a recap of the last few weeks of my life, although I do feel like I should give an explanation for my recent absence from The Tiana Diaries. It was to explain that on every new level of your life, you will come across new devils. I have had so many blessings coming towards me, yet I can't deny that times have been hard. Emotionally, I have been a little unstable (breakups, stress, and estrogen can be one hell of a mix), but I have finally found a levelheaded ground for myself. Financially I have been struggling (a temporary R.I.P. to my beautiful claws) but I am learning financial responsibility (and between tax returns and refund checks, I don't have too much to worry about for much longer). But let me tell you, this new level of mine has been so rewarding. I have never been so proud of myself or excited for my future until now. I have never appreciated the words "I am proud of you" as much as I have on this level of my life. I have never looked forward to hard work before...ever...until now, because I know that with hard work comes great outcomes.
This new level of my life has introduced me to so much more than devils. Devils...the devil...they don't scare me. I am too much of a bad-ass (excuse my language) to succumb to the fear of failure, heartbreak, or anything in general! I have myself, my family, and God to help me upgrade to new levels. Trust me, my next level will be even more rewarding than this one...just wait on it.
